Im not that strong anymore

everythng was okay,but u came back again, i know, u told me we could be friends. n that kind a conversation is just normal, but seriouuuuussslyyyyyyyyy. im not over u girl. i tot i was over u but i was wrong, i just broke down n cry again. i miss you. i need you. i really do. wtf rite? hmm, n my lil andy, i tot he could understand me, but he make me cry more n more. haha. yeah, now. every lil thing tht hurt me, i'll end up crying. my heart cant take the bloody pain nymore. keep getting hurt no matter how hard i try. i hate myself. i hate every single thing. love, im sorry, fr everythng. i love you, just cant get rid of her yet frm ma mind. will try my best to do that. okie?

love, sha iylia <3

I Just Want To Be Happy

i tot that he's the one, the one can always make me happy, n be happy with me. i guess i was wrong. looks like we're starting to argue now n its just been like a week we're together. i love you. i really do. trust me. ask my soul sista, ask my natt. if its true or not. but hunn. u have to understand me a bit you know. i cant always just take care of ur heart n feelings only but ur not doing the same. hmm. all i want is, for us to be happy. im tired. fucking tired with all ths shits. i just wanna be happy. i want the happiness to last. if can forever. i've been hurt by so many guys even girls. my heart just cant take all those pain nymore. so i want u to try work things out with me in a way u know. i cant do this all alone. i need you. i'm sorry if its my fault. iloveyou.

love, sha iylia

urgh!

like seriously hunn? i game u eh? u tahu x, slama i ade fb, sorg je bf i yg tahu password i. n ur the second one. i x penah give the other kay. TAK PERNAH. seriously, think lah. klo i na game u, buat ape i na bgi fb i? huh? sje na mengkantoi kan diri sendiri? no kayy. u hurt me. u really did. i asked u to trust me. susah sgt ke? i love you. i really do. im not lying. u think ur the only who's crying? think again. hmm. fuck ma life.

Andrew de cruz :)

see ze guy up there, thats my boyfie :D heee.. i dont know why but yeah, i fell for him. like yeah, we've been skyping for like hours n hours, he's soo cute! :D he caught my heart lah okie?:)
oh ya, my last post was saying i was with ejam rite? we broke up few days ago n now, im with Andrew de cruz, NO MORE the others, just him now :D actually im scared, he's also scared. both of us are scared. scared of what? scared of love. we're kind a experience the same thing in love, people keep walking away for no reason, lots of tears n heartbreaks. so now, im hoping, all this kind a shit will never ever happen again. i love him. i really do :) i dont want any shit to happen to him. i'll do my best to make it last :) n this time im serious. like really. no joke :D hmm, but there's one thing bout him, he cant stop talking bout his exs. all of them. -.- i do not like to hear all that stuff okie. it hurt me in a way. hopefully everything will be fine between us. need ma sleep now. :)
love, sha iylia <3