Life

Im sitting in my room all alone. Thinking about my life, love life actually. Im back tgther with ejam :) im suppose to feel happy rite? At first i am, like really trully happy, natt was there when it all happen, but then rite, after a day, we're back together, it doesnt feel like last time. Like how we used to be, now everythng's more awkward. He dont love me how he used to, n for that i hate it. I really have a feeling tht our relationshp wont be that long, n oh ya, so much for loving hafiz till the end rite? I broke up with him right after im back with ejam, i felt guilty, thats one thing bout me, im not satisfied with just one, but yeah. Hafiz have changed too. Like a lot, n when i told him i wanna broke up with him, till rite now, there's no response from him. I was totally shocked. Haha. Yeah, he's a gud guy, he deserve sum1 beter than me. Hmm. Miss him oh. :') bt i thnk he'll be just fine rite? Hpflly lah yeah. Hmm. N bout her? Still miss her. But just cant do nythng bout it. Erm. I thnk thats it fr now.
Love, sha iylia <3

Hate that i love you

we've only known each other for a week, only a week, but seriously, i fell for u, ur so adorable, ur so sweet, urall i ever wanted. I left the others for u, but then i dont mind, seriously coz i tot i got u, but then, after only 7 days we've been texting n talking to each other, u told me something that totally shock me. U told me, u cant continue what we're hving now, gosh! I tot it was like okaayyy, i'll be okay. But then, i was totally wrong, gosh. It hurt weyh. It really do got me, i dont hve nybody nymore. I tot everythng will be okay if u we're there, but then u walked away too. I dont know why, eventhough its only been a week we've known each other, but when u dissapeared, i felt so hurt, so empty, i keep on reading our texts, i know tht might sounded crazy, but its true, evrytime i think of u, i'll broke down n cry, i didnt know tht it will hurt me this much.imissyou. I really do, n i do know something else too. I really trully in love with u. U know it hurt so much seeing u in school n looking at u but then i cant even say anythng to u. Not even a single word. I cant get u out of my mind. I dont know y. Losing u hurt me so much n oh ya, i send her a text earlier but then, she dint reply, i think she really trully want to get rid of me. I just wish that she know how much i love her. I dont know how im going to survive every single day in the school from now on. I just want u to know, i do love u okay? N i wont stop loving you. Never! N i really do meant it. Eventhough u scared that i'll played with ur heart, but seriously, if u give me a chance to love you. U'll really trully know who i am when i started loving someone. Lastly, i miss you so much.
Love, sha

Goodbye love

im giving up on you.. erm.. yeah.. AT LAST.. :) cant take it anymore, after that call, this feeling just fucking came, the feeling of hating you! yup, n hating myself for falling for you.. to make everything more simple n clearer, this song is just for you( like u even give a shit rite?)
Almost Lover
Songwriters: Sudol, Alison Loren;

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind, images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes, clever trick

Well, I?d never want to see you unhappy
I thought you?d want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?

So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me in the shade
And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you would never ever forget these images, no

Well, I?d never want to see you unhappy
I thought you?d want the same for me
[ From : http://www.elyrics.net/read/a/a-fine-frenzy-lyrics/almost-lover-lyrics.html ]

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?

So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot try the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind

So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy to walk
Right in and out of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Why can't you just let me be?

So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

love,
sha