everythng was okay,but u came back again, i know, u told me we could be friends. n that kind a conversation is just normal, but seriouuuuussslyyyyyyyyy. im not over u girl. i tot i was over u but i was wrong, i just broke down n cry again. i miss you. i need you. i really do. wtf rite? hmm, n my lil andy, i tot he could understand me, but he make me cry more n more. haha. yeah, now. every lil thing tht hurt me, i'll end up crying. my heart cant take the bloody pain nymore. keep getting hurt no matter how hard i try. i hate myself. i hate every single thing. love, im sorry, fr everythng. i love you, just cant get rid of her yet frm ma mind. will try my best to do that. okie?
love, sha iylia <3
Thursday, 11 August 2011
Monday, 8 August 2011
I Just Want To Be Happy
i tot that he's the one, the one can always make me happy, n be happy with me. i guess i was wrong. looks like we're starting to argue now n its just been like a week we're together. i love you. i really do. trust me. ask my soul sista, ask my natt. if its true or not. but hunn. u have to understand me a bit you know. i cant always just take care of ur heart n feelings only but ur not doing the same. hmm. all i want is, for us to be happy. im tired. fucking tired with all ths shits. i just wanna be happy. i want the happiness to last. if can forever. i've been hurt by so many guys even girls. my heart just cant take all those pain nymore. so i want u to try work things out with me in a way u know. i cant do this all alone. i need you. i'm sorry if its my fault. iloveyou.
love, sha iylia
love, sha iylia
Tuesday, 2 August 2011
urgh!
like seriously hunn? i game u eh? u tahu x, slama i ade fb, sorg je bf i yg tahu password i. n ur the second one. i x penah give the other kay. TAK PERNAH. seriously, think lah. klo i na game u, buat ape i na bgi fb i? huh? sje na mengkantoi kan diri sendiri? no kayy. u hurt me. u really did. i asked u to trust me. susah sgt ke? i love you. i really do. im not lying. u think ur the only who's crying? think again. hmm. fuck ma life.
Monday, 1 August 2011
Andrew de cruz :)
see ze guy up there, thats my boyfie :D heee.. i dont know why but yeah, i fell for him. like yeah, we've been skyping for like hours n hours, he's soo cute! :D he caught my heart lah okie?:)
oh ya, my last post was saying i was with ejam rite? we broke up few days ago n now, im with Andrew de cruz, NO MORE the others, just him now :D actually im scared, he's also scared. both of us are scared. scared of what? scared of love. we're kind a experience the same thing in love, people keep walking away for no reason, lots of tears n heartbreaks. so now, im hoping, all this kind a shit will never ever happen again. i love him. i really do :) i dont want any shit to happen to him. i'll do my best to make it last :) n this time im serious. like really. no joke :D hmm, but there's one thing bout him, he cant stop talking bout his exs. all of them. -.- i do not like to hear all that stuff okie. it hurt me in a way. hopefully everything will be fine between us. need ma sleep now. :)
love, sha iylia <3
Thursday, 28 July 2011
Life
Im sitting in my room all alone. Thinking about my life, love life actually. Im back tgther with ejam :) im suppose to feel happy rite? At first i am, like really trully happy, natt was there when it all happen, but then rite, after a day, we're back together, it doesnt feel like last time. Like how we used to be, now everythng's more awkward. He dont love me how he used to, n for that i hate it. I really have a feeling tht our relationshp wont be that long, n oh ya, so much for loving hafiz till the end rite? I broke up with him right after im back with ejam, i felt guilty, thats one thing bout me, im not satisfied with just one, but yeah. Hafiz have changed too. Like a lot, n when i told him i wanna broke up with him, till rite now, there's no response from him. I was totally shocked. Haha. Yeah, he's a gud guy, he deserve sum1 beter than me. Hmm. Miss him oh. :') bt i thnk he'll be just fine rite? Hpflly lah yeah. Hmm. N bout her? Still miss her. But just cant do nythng bout it. Erm. I thnk thats it fr now.
Love, sha iylia <3
Love, sha iylia <3
Monday, 18 July 2011
Hate that i love you
we've only known each other for a week, only a week, but seriously, i fell for u, ur so adorable, ur so sweet, urall i ever wanted. I left the others for u, but then i dont mind, seriously coz i tot i got u, but then, after only 7 days we've been texting n talking to each other, u told me something that totally shock me. U told me, u cant continue what we're hving now, gosh! I tot it was like okaayyy, i'll be okay. But then, i was totally wrong, gosh. It hurt weyh. It really do got me, i dont hve nybody nymore. I tot everythng will be okay if u we're there, but then u walked away too. I dont know why, eventhough its only been a week we've known each other, but when u dissapeared, i felt so hurt, so empty, i keep on reading our texts, i know tht might sounded crazy, but its true, evrytime i think of u, i'll broke down n cry, i didnt know tht it will hurt me this much.imissyou. I really do, n i do know something else too. I really trully in love with u. U know it hurt so much seeing u in school n looking at u but then i cant even say anythng to u. Not even a single word. I cant get u out of my mind. I dont know y. Losing u hurt me so much n oh ya, i send her a text earlier but then, she dint reply, i think she really trully want to get rid of me. I just wish that she know how much i love her. I dont know how im going to survive every single day in the school from now on. I just want u to know, i do love u okay? N i wont stop loving you. Never! N i really do meant it. Eventhough u scared that i'll played with ur heart, but seriously, if u give me a chance to love you. U'll really trully know who i am when i started loving someone. Lastly, i miss you so much.
Love, sha
Love, sha
Monday, 11 July 2011
Goodbye love
im giving up on you.. erm.. yeah.. AT LAST.. :) cant take it anymore, after that call, this feeling just fucking came, the feeling of hating you! yup, n hating myself for falling for you.. to make everything more simple n clearer, this song is just for you( like u even give a shit rite?)
Almost Lover
Songwriters: Sudol, Alison Loren;
Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind, images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes, clever trick
Well, I?d never want to see you unhappy
I thought you?d want the same for me
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me in the shade
And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you would never ever forget these images, no
Well, I?d never want to see you unhappy
I thought you?d want the same for me
[ From : http://www.elyrics.net/read/a/a-fine-frenzy-lyrics/almost-lover-lyrics.html ]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot try the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy to walk
Right in and out of my life?
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Why can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
love,
sha
Almost Lover
Songwriters: Sudol, Alison Loren;
Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind, images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes, clever trick
Well, I?d never want to see you unhappy
I thought you?d want the same for me
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me in the shade
And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you would never ever forget these images, no
Well, I?d never want to see you unhappy
I thought you?d want the same for me
[ From : http://www.elyrics.net/read/a/a-fine-frenzy-lyrics/almost-lover-lyrics.html ]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot try the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy to walk
Right in and out of my life?
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Why can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
love,
sha
Friday, 8 July 2011
it happen again
OMG! it happen again.. He walk away.. Just like how d fucker did. Urgh! Why the hell it keep happening to me for god sake?! Cant all this shit be stop?! I cant stand it nymore. I love you. I really do. N now, i fucking miss u. Like really :'( why are u doing this to me?! U promise me you wont go, u promise me you wont leave me but what is all this, i called u never pick up n text? Never ever reply! I miss your cute voice, your cute attitude.. Ur adorable! Imissyou! :'( i really do.. Stop torturing me like this hunn.. Ur killing me.. Pls do come back.. Imy..
Love, sha
Love, sha
